I haven't touched my blog for so long!! Oh man.

Well its 5 plus plus in the office, i'm slacking. Boss is having a meeting. I am dying.

My life is screwed. I dont even know what i'm doing now. Mr you-know-who just f***ing walked out of the office without telling me. I am irritated leh.

And well...i feel so disrespected. My god. Kill me.

I am getting increasingly fustrated at work. Really fustrated

And well, i should have more confidence in myself, right? Afterall, if it ultimately boils down to *****, then there's nothing worth taking into account for this whole affair. Hmmmm.

I am still very fustrated at work. VERY.

Anyone who has good looking ORD boys/A level girls for the filling in of the post of Recruitment Consultant (i.e what i am doing), please recommend me. Lets just say, i (the department) am(is) desperate.

I foresee that i will be extremely fustrated at work for a long time

So yeah...please console me. Thanks.

as i was talking to yy today, i've made up my mind abt some stuff. i guess i really have to eat my own words, cause freaking hell i realise i do care. its just getting past the "i care" stage into the "i care but i can control" stage.

its only been a week and it feels like its been ages. i don't actually wanna admit it, but i have to say, you are missed. not 24/7, but definitely missed.

someone pls stop me!

all my bags are packed and i'm ready to go
i'm standin here outside your door
i hate to wake you up to say goodbye
but the dawn is breakin it's early morn
the taxi's waitin he's blowin his horn
already i'm so lonesome i could die

so kiss me and smile for me
tell me that you'll wait for me
hold me like you'll never let me go
cause i'm leavin on a jet plane
don't know if i'll be back again
oh babe i hate to go

ther's so many times i let you down
so many times i've played around
but i tell you now they don't mean a thing
every place i go i'll think of you
every song i'll sing i'll sing for you
and when i come back i'll wear your wedding ring

so kiss me and smile for me
tell me that you'll wait for me
hold me like you'll never let me go
cause i'm leavin on a jet plane
don't know when i'll be back again
oh babe i hate to go

now the time has come to leave you
one more time now let me kiss you
close your eyes and i'll be on my way
dream about the days to come
when i won't have to leave alone
about the times that i won't have to say....

oh kiss me and smile for me
tell me that you'll wait for me
hold me like you'll never let me
cause i'm leavin on a jet plane
don't know when i'll be back again
oh babe i hate to go

i'm leavin on a jet plane
don't know when i'll be back again
oh babe i hate to go

i'm leavin on a jet plane
don't know when i'll be back again
oh babe i hate to go

but i'm leavin on a jet plane .....

*************

till the 17th of Feb

i am fucking pissed off. i can't exactly explain how fucking pissed off i am, but yeah....i am fucking pissed off. In fact, i think that's the only thing i am capable of now, being fucking pissed.

To say the truth, i dun even know why the hell i got myself into all this shit, cause honestly, i don't deserve this. so you know what? just f off alright??!!!

The above incoherent post is, once again, evidence of my incapability to control/comprehend the situation. Sometimes i just wish that i'd be dead, my eyes are blind, ignorant and oblivious. But obviously this does NOT happen, so...well...fuck off. No matter how many times, how many many times its re-validated (hell if there's such a word), i think it should have never ever happened. If not i wouldn't be in so much trouble, and problems, and...well...have smth prickling.

I miss the simple JC world. I really do. I mean...to say the least...things were simple. And well, i was simple, the people ard were simple.

And yeah, i totally agree with what you said, Hansel. "20 year old boys are *****"
In fact, come to think of it, thats the only thing they're good at.

For the (n+1)th time, f*** off NOW. Make it a GP progression!

I am blogging from the office. I've lost touch with the virtual world as the horrible realistic working world take up ALL my time. Ok, probably not all. Most. But thats enough.

I should stop being such an idiot. Come to think of it, i HATE people like that! So why should i sink so low and turn into someone i despise. F***. In fact, i should, as usual, be oblivious and indifferent and say "i don't give a damn". This strangely reminds me of last year, the same situation, different person.

Anyway, matt is getting outta PRISON!!! haha. ok, confinement. But yeah,can't wait to see him! Love you deep deep matt!!!

And i am still waiting...still waiting...endless waiting...pointless waiting...waiting...............................reminds me of WFG.

F***

Matt, you are missed by me (and others of course) like...i will freaking miss you badly!!!! I await the day we meet up again!

Anyway, dear removed his wisdom tooth today. i guess it is freaking hurting him. Hmmm...i shall not think abt it, everything which i shouldn't

In a way, its good to think of the end, cause the end might be much much sooner than you think