showed our piece today. lofty blew up in a temper cause he couldn see belief n emotions in e piece, n i think he is right...it was all too weird and rigid with lines and everything...we ended up shouting across the studios to get e feeling right. we need to slot, i need to think (which i cant cause my brains all glued up) and WE HAVE TO STOP BITCHING AT ONE ANOTHER! honestly i think groups spoil friendships...i'm afraid of hurting sumone, and its a lot of squabbling n bad tempers flying ard. I know its all bout compremising and stuffs...i juz have to get used to it soon...but it hurts

got shortlisted for sum TIP thing, briefing tmr...honestly i dun think i will get in. i wanna go but my ma think its totally pointless! i feel like flaring up cause i dunno how to explain to her its not pointless...argh!

i'm missing mondays, honestly...i wanna laugh again, but i dunno how...