i wanna swear a thousand swearwords. but i suspect its just gonna get censored. i'm on a "i hate blah" mood again. this time not because of sch, i mean, even PW hasn't started getting onto my nerves yet (amazingly). i hate myself. i hate myself really really badly. today is such a horrible day, and i dunno why i feel so horrible.

like early in e morning i found myself sick and suffering from a flu and sore throat. then i went to sch feeling totally depressed bout my chem test and my set, like duh. then i found out bout jane's bro who just had a high-risk operation this morning, which made me feel totally upset for unknown reasons. i started thinking bout whether its more painful to die or more painful for your loved ones who are watching you die, and so it led to this long argument with muthu which i insisted on the latter. and i just kept thinking bout it through the horrible chem SPA (i totally forgot wth is a calorimeter), so of course i'm gonna fail it. even the maths lecturer was extra bitchy today. so i went to Day thinking i shall mug, but in the end i ended up doing nothing and watching zac's hair got covered with mousse.

ok, so e chem test was quite alright, but tt did not perk me up at all. and it certainly brought someone's mood down and somehow motivated pple to mug. oh, then came the duo marks. wow, like climax of the climax of such a bad day (heck daniel powter) i just burst out laughing looking at the remarks and yeah, i wasn't so upset after all. perhaps the boundaries have been pushed too much and i couldn't feel the pain at all. but yeah, just then albert just had to tell me in tt horribly horribly nice tone abt how sorry he felt for our duo cause me n johnny really worked hard but it just turned out wrong. enough said man, its just enough to set the taps flowing. horrible!!!!!!! its so so so so so unglam and everything and i wasn't even feeling upset at first! omg i must have looked horrible! but i just can't stop.

i hate it when i get all emo and stuff. i hate it. and i swear i must be like e most emo person or something. crap the world. and yeah i'm working on my design as i type this post, how STUPID!!

i just wanna live beside the sea or lake, and stone forever. no i wasn't kidding. i wanna be a hermit