i'm feeling really horrible...after reading mermer's entries...i feel like a terrible horrible incompetent friend. i can't believe how horribly unfeeling and stupid i am not to show any concern abt her feelings and life. the memories of us always dashing for orange bowl, how she sits beside me and falls asleep during ms choo's lessons, how e 2 of us never manage to complete maths hw...(more like me, but oh well)

come to think of it seriously, i cant seem to name friends whom i'm still in contact with from primary sch or secondary...ok, yeah i have the few i'm closer with and i suspect will still stick on for quite some time before all fades. you just gotta admit it that nothing is really lasting and pple change at e speed of light. lucky you if u can say "i'm still in contact with my pri sch friends and we're still like the gd old times" having friends seems normal. but having and keeping them is another thing.

perhaps it all dwells down to the pt of how incredibly unfeeling and insensitive and stupid and lousy i am, cause i dun even seem to realise how pple are suffering and secretly weeping in corners or something. and i really dunno how to comfort them, perhaps all i noe is to listen and give them a hug or something.

mermer dear, dun be so upset alright? u'll rem u still have e whole o-ay gang behind u, wont you?