finally, i'm able to blog. stupid networks. lets see...past few days were so crammed up with events its been a blur. gosh

uh, lets start with harmoc prac. mr lee treated us to pizza hut with the caroling money! woo hoo! i love beef lasagne!! talked loads of crap before returning back to sch to mug while waiting for sy to go mug, which well, we din in the end. saw the CT pple doing up sea regatta stuff. ahaha. just because tim was there doesn't mean anything alright, lol. >.<

uh, ogl again on thurs. played games. can't really rem much, except the benches were quite heavy. and prob how i make a wonderful prince charming (right beebee?) haha. oh we came up with new cheers after the whole thing. i think our og is really heading for a bright future :) i love our pple, and i cheered too much tt i got a sore throat. oh dear.

fri ogl again. i've found my lao po, who gave me really gd lozenges. love her. yup so it was sea regatta dry run, more like wet run. oh well. stupid ray and the guys, stop dunking me!! i can fight only 2 not 6, lol! all because of the flag stealing game. hahaha. but mich lost her specs, poor girl. quite fun, everyone was quite high. yup so went back and rehearsed for opening ceremony which is really hilarious. omg elroy with his crane thing and water. hahahahaha! went for og dinner after tt, had my first subway meal. its actually quite nice. played hai dai quan with tze wei which is totally totally funny!! hahaha!! pentium 1!! see kiat was trying hard not to laugh, but cmi la you. and played ji gou ba which i totally suck at, damn...i'm gonna win someday. had quite a lot of fun, but looking for pacifiers was tiring. went sky garden where i tried to introduce hp racing but huay shan's phone can't vibrate at all!! lol. and the hp game, string thing was really really stupid, lol, i was just staring with a 'huh?!' look. but hey, we're a fun bunch!!

today ogl again. haha. after which we went for lunch at hawker centre and proceeded to clement's house. started reading harry potter while clement tim and jiunhoe played dota, and ray crawling under clement's bed. lol. watched some movie which i can't rem the title, but there's the mr bean guy and its really really funny. they just kill pple for free. hahaha. right, so terence joined us and we went kovan for dinner at kfc where the guys start gossiping again. hahaha. met mummy, i bought phantom of the opera dvd!!

as R papers draw nearer and nearer, i can see hell approaching...

*i really wanna pass, i really do*

lets see, life these days have basically been sleep. maths. slack. sleep. maths. slack. eat. maths....and yes, special thanks to matt dear who offered to help me with my maths. i'll come searching for you soon. ahaha.

creon steamboat tonight. hmm. been stoning, while the guys were gossiping/scandalising. i discover to my horror, ok mayb not horror, tt jialin can really eat. and i mean REALLY. gosh. how is it tt u're still so slim!!! *jealous look* haha. then went to ps, where huihui jialin and i totally indulged ourselves in ice cream. i confess i'm guilty...gosh. i vow to go on diet like, REALLY SOON.

nights world. its been a...event-filled hol

it must be a drastic decision on my part to be doing maths on christmas day. well. frankly speaking, this must have been the most boring christmas ever, cause there aren't even nice programmes to watch on tv. the best part would prob have been, well, shopping with mummy. and mayb sending christmas cards all over the place. oh well.

speaking of maths. i think i'm thoroughly screwed. which is really kind of sick for now, considering maths R to be on 3rd. yay. how nice. 1st paper on the 1st day of orientation. and i confess, i haven't called up all my kids yet. see, only 1 guy picked up the phone. lol. ok, kinda stupid to call on christmas anyway.

i finally got my jeans. yay. i smell christmas dinner cooking, and i can't wait for new yr countdown. i so wanna see the fireworks!!!! do let's go catch the fireworks pple!!

and its still not working. go away, seriously

gosh. gosh gosh gosh. shopping with mummy is really tiring!! i mean, considering she bought a pot. dear me. went to catch harmoc at rendezvous today. saw darling working hard at coffee club!!! hahaha!! i apologise to the harmoc pple, cause my sis sorta went crazy taking photos. hmm.

thanks steph, mel, matt!! i received ur christmas card!!! love ya all!!

its christmas, its christmas, its....drawing closer to R paper...arghs...

hmm. lets see. harmoc carolling yst. how the audience could have clapped i have no idea, cause in my opinion, it was really bad. then again, quite a few vj ppl there, so, hmm...carolling at hotel rendezvous, i can totally imagine them playing. darling you can try catching it!!

suppose to do the econs project today. i think we prob spent like 3secs on it :) how nice. then went to xl's house to do maths, but as expected didn't complete much. spent rest of the time playing mahjong, of which ray totally bankrupted himself. haha. caught animal planet. hahaha. top 10 most disgusting animal acts. i love animal planet and discovery!! left with eugene for tpy. the malaria pills acted up today and the side effects were quite bad. arghs. 1 one week of pills to go!!

oh, i sent out the christmas cards!!! yay!! hope it arrives on time, check your mails!!!

finally ended 2 days of ogl training. fun, sometimes sian, but nevertheless, quite enjoyable. i love the Creon banner. creon rocks!! i mean, the banner is SOOOOOO PRETTY!!!! its REALLY REALLY PRETTY!!! (thanks to darrel) Iago's one is nice too (elroy)

i'm thinking of prank calling the freshmen. hmmm. tt will be so fun. terrorize them even before they step into VJC. *evil cackle*

i realise, to my horrors, tt i have SO MANY christmas cards to write!! ahhhh!!!
then again, its the season to spread the love, spread the love, spread the love....

and i kind of found out today tt, if i dun pass maths R, i gotta drop it to H1. DAMN!

met up with darling again today. and i've come to realise how much i miss her. yep dear u're missed. though it seems now that we're getting fewer oppotunities for girls talk, but still, i still enjoy all the pep pep pork stuff. hahaha. zou tao hua yun le. pep pep is a gd person *winks* thanks for listening to my sad life, and abt half a million other stuff which i just feel like ranting abt with no particular reason. though i think, seriously, my life just surrounds those few people and few things (and its enough to drain me), but yeah, at least you're there :) love ya!!!

(this sounds oddly like a confession. hmm)

sometimes its not even abt missed opportunities, timing or circumstance. its simply just the wrong person.

mr X : xiao jie, ni men zhe li de dong xi dou shi $2 ah?
me: dui
mr X: zhe ge ye shi $2?
me: dui
mr X: na xiao jie ni ye shi $2 ah?
me: ...................

thanks, really. lol

long day. i'm still outta my mind, but prob a little better than yst. watched the arsenal-chelsea match, like wth went wrong with me that i'll start watching soccer...oh well, 1-1 draw. someone won $1.50 huh? lol

ogl meeting today. hello Creon (pronounced cree-eon, not crayon). yup so we got our sucking powers and lollipop identities...hmm, shall not launch onto the balls part. oh well. tiring, but pretty brainless too. man soor is really one funny guy, can't stand him, hahaha!

yuhua harmoc concert night at esplanade. i have to say, they are really good, better than us by loads and loads, BUT, still not satisfactory enough. then again, who am i to say tt when vj harmoc is so much worse? hmm. from an audience POV i guess. kind of dragged the others to the waterfront, i think places with water bring back too much memories. its a wonder i still love these places so much, cause sometimes, you really don't wanna think about it

moth and fire. the result? hah...

i'm losing myself. i really am losing myself. and i really hate myself for losing myself.

and somehow, i don't even know who to blame, what to vent on, or even why i'm feeling the way i am.

i hate not understanding, i really really thought i could and i do.

and in that split second, i realise, i'm falling

this post sorta screwed up my blog...

night at sentosa is, well, seriously boring if you're not with ur friends. you can't expect ur mum to go night trekking (or beach) with you, oh well. not to mention if you gotta babysit 4 kids. but the skytrain and luge ride thing was rather fun, it makes me feel confident abt getting my driving license. hmm. its gonna be christmas! time to get together with your family,friends, loved ones. christmas always make ppl happy. then again, just really hope tt someone is (was) there. its these times when you realise that you're all by yourself and well...alone
now i realise, there are things that really can't be said, not even to anyone. you keep it to yourself, but you're dying to vent it out. but no, you just simply can't, cause its pointless
christmas in the air, but somehow, something is not quite right

daddy's coming back tonight. in fact, i expect him to step into the house any sec. that means no more like nights online for perhaps a week. i'll miss my comp.

i swear i'm poisoned from within, with all the diarrhoea, headaches and stupid skin disease!! arghs!! i swear its a skin disease!!! grrr. giving me sleepless nights, not that i need them!! like HELLO!!!!!!

work went quite ok today, though there's nothing exciting bout the job except tt old uncle who broke a bottle of nail polish today and dyed the counter pink. oh, and this bitchy colleague of mine. hahaha. i love the caramel corn. feel like a noob, ok i am a noob. oh well.

my sis brought home a stray kitten today. its really small and black, but i insist on calling him/her/it xiao bai. i wanna get a white dog next and call him/her/it xiao hei. oh well.

sometimes i just wish i could be more stupid, oblivious and well, more self deluded. but then again, tt's quite impossible

met up with dar today. working at hotel rendezvous's coffee club now. nice place actually. the fresh fruit fondue is really really good, the price is really good too. hahahaha. the irish coffee would have tasted better if only the coffee taste wasn't that strong, oh well, strictly for above 18 (but like i care...) talked to dar for really long time and kind of discovered that, well, we're in the same situation. damn. life is just so incredibly ****ed up. even random pple bang into me when i'm walking on the streets, what on earth is their problem!

starting work tmr. hope its gonna go alright. i'm just, too tired to think abt anything anymore

sometimes i really don't know myself, i wish i do though. really.

it hurts...i'm not pretending its not, but its ok :)

went for harmoc prac today for a performance tmr which i kind of just knew today and i have absolutely no idea how to play the songs. i'm just gonna sight read, and hope tt everything will be fine. some mall in simei, haha...dun even noe wad place is tt

went to collect my lenses today, talked abt stuff tt happened. oh oh met mr chua returning back to VJ to take pics wif his bride, took pictures with them. haha!

there's nothing i can do to help, its probably not something i can help you with. then again, jia you

hello world i'm back!!! choom reap sor!!! yup, so The 'L' Factor has finally ended and well, a lot happened, a lot i will miss, and a lot to remember.

not going into the details cause well, telling it is so much better than writing it. then again, just to inform all whose concerned, yours truly is still in one piece (too bad i've disappointed you rray) and i hope (i really hope) i've lost some weight during this trip. hah. yup, so i'm still alive!!!

i'll miss all the OCIPers (especially the frolicking bunch), the cambodian kids (Srey niang, Theara, Dinet, Sok Lian, Songha, Polly, Lisa, Mosea...loads more) the sugarcane drinks, well drilling, bumpy car rides etc etc.

The 'L' Factor rocks!!! We have all survived in Cambodia!!!